The Mega Millions lottery jackpot was 1.6 BILLION dollars this week.

Like most of America who had lottery fever, I already planned out all the things I’d buy when I went to pick up my check today. But to my dismay, I wasn’t the winner. Someone in South Carolina won.

The first thing to do today is take back the resignation letter I sent to my boss.

I always have it written out every week when I buy a lottery ticket because I KNOW I won’t be back to work the next day when I see I’m a millionaire (or billionaire in this case).

But sadly, I don’t win, so it’s back to the daily grind I go.

Not winning greatly inconveniences me.

I know the chances of winning are slim, but it gives me a little hope that my life will be better. The sad part is, when I don’t win I get genuinely mad. I don’t mean let down or frustrated. I mean I am literally angry because it really messed up my plans.

I really need that money, but I’m not overly greedy. I’d be happy with 1/10th of that win, or 1/100th or even 1/1000th of that amount. Heck, at this point in my life I’d be happy if somebody gave me a slice of pizza.

Just once (well, maybe more than once) I’d like to wake up and see my life changed in an instant with a windfall of millions of dollars. Somebody has to win, so it might as well be me.

All I can do in the meantime is keep that resignation letter on hold, waiting to hit send until I buy my next non winning ticket.